So, it’s been a minute. A lot has happened, a lot has transpired, and things have been said about me that have varying levels of truth to it. Where are things at with me now? Let’s talk.
https://x.com/plentygrows74/status/1845177837017337957
Before we continue, I’d like to direct your attention to this document that’s been in the works for the past few months. It wasn’t my doing, but I do endorse it as it goes over the situation as well as the doings of PoisonousPastels, whom I have a rocky history with and recently came after me and my projects. I’d recommend you give that a careful look over before you read what I have to say here. A lot of time and effort has been put into it and we hope it’ll put things into a new perspective regarding what has unfolded the past month, not just in regards to me but other people’s experiences as well. If you’re actively looking for a response to his claims other than what I’m putting into this post, chances are you can find it there, and you can also ask that twitter account any questions you may have.
To address the main point he’s been making: I never defended someone who took advantage of another person sexually in the first place, this was even before I had properly established communication with the person in question and at the time I was just stuck in the middle of two sides of a VERY rough situation and I didn’t know who to fully believe. It’s probably obvious now what my stance is on the situation given the document above, but I would never defend actions taken like that. It’s horrendous that I have to come out and say that at all, especially as a victim of exploitation since I myself was taken advantage of from the time I was 11-16, I of all people would understand the severity of it. That’s not an accusation you just throw at someone willy-nilly, especially if you know what they’ve been through, which I have discussed this with them before. I’d never defend that, and I condemn anybody who harbors that sort of behavior.
My personal final response to Rose is this, what did you have to gain from this? What could you gain by harboring such hatred and spite even going so far as to take the project we spent three years together on, the project that I worked on arguably most of for you, and work on it with another party out of spite all the while keeping the ideas and concepts I created as well as including things you shunned me for pitching in the first place? What did you gain by attempting to slander my name with god knows how many people who barely even know the person I am today and the problems I’ve grown from? How much more hatred can you possibly spread before it takes over your life entirely, if it hasn’t already? I genuinely want to believe there is good and peace in you, I was friends with you for three years even despite the things you put me through. I hope you can take a solid look at this document and the words that I am saying and use it to grow, if not for yourself then the people around you. If I can do it, then you certainly can too. But as it currently stands, the way you have been behaving is not the way you should be treating people. The fact that you’re actively using your platform to attack people at all is a serious problem. I hope you can find peace with the things you’ve harbored and committed, not just towards me but to many others as well, and I hope you grow from it.
That being said I definitely haven’t been perfect in all of this myself, as I’ve addressed before there’s been moments where I’ve lashed out at people and taken rash decisions in the heat of the moment because of the stress this situation put me under. Obviously that doesn’t excuse it, but I have acknowledged it and I’ve been actively working to fix those issues with the people around me. With that in mind, I understand I’ve been very difficult to approach about genuine issues in the past and often I’d deflect them, stick to other people’s opinions on it without forming my own, or walk away entirely out of pure anxiety. I’d like to ask that if you have any issues with me you actually approach me one on one about them going forward, as I’ve been seriously busting my ass trying to work against that kind of behavior. The amount of backlash I’ve faced apart from Rose over things that are either a flat out misunderstanding or a simple mistake that can easily be solved over a simple conversation is seriously not great, and it’s made me hesitant to want to share any of my future projects going forward. I’m still thinking on whether or not I will, but as of currently, projects like GSaF will remain offline because of the stress I’ve had to face.
Hopefully this post and the document above clears the air in regards to how things have been the past few months, I understand if a lot of people still take issue with me and that’s totally understandable if so. I’m far from perfect and I’ve definitely paved a rocky road getting to this point, and I accept that. All I can ask is the next time something like this happens, give the other person more room to actually address the situation as opposed to slamming the hammer down immediately. I understand it took a long time for this response to be posted, but I didn’t feel strong enough to come out publicly until the party that created the document had finished their work. If you want to reach out to settle something with me, just ask people associated with me for my current contact. I’m not hard to reach, but I won’t willingly be putting my discord tag out for a long while for safety reasons unless something comes up. With that said, this will likely be my final post on this account going forward unless I decide to reupload GSaF in the future or another emergency happens. Whenever I do decide to come back, it’ll be under a new name and account as I want to put my many mistakes as avocadodreams/theresnosteak as well as this situation behind me and move forward with my life.
That’s all, thank you for your time, and thank you to those of you who have stuck by me throughout all of this.
